Daily Thoughts

Dear Reader,

Something has been on my mind recently. I feel very much obsessed with someone. Like a crush. Only I can’t stop checking my phone to see if they texted back. I don’t know; maybe this is obsession, and maybe it’s my own overthinking head. Whichever one it is, it is affecting my daily life. When I think about this person, I feel guilty (as if it’s a crime to somewhat like someone). But then I am constantly wanting to text this person as well. Every time I am about to push the send button or even pick up my phone, I give up on this endeavor and think better of it. I should not be distracted with these thoughts, I think. But every time I try to ignore them, they come back tenfold. I felt like I was going crazy. Finally, I texted this person. It’s not that I was nervous to text them, I was just afraid what the consequences of texting would be for me… would I be more obsessed and spiral?? I’m just all about protecting my peace, and if I end up getting close to this person who I think about a lot, then that thinking will have gone to waste. I just don’t know what to do anymore and my anxiety is peaking. Oh well. 

If you ever feel like this, know that you are not alone. Your fellow author feels insecure and crazy sometimes too.